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Because of YouI've just got way too many CDs... Either I get Heero and Duo out of the brain and I don't wanna do that 'cuz then who'll I draw?, or just block my ears whenever *any* song goes on... ^^;;

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Because of You
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[It's all... it's all... it's all...]
*...a bright smile is offered to a cobalt-eyed boy...*

It really is.

 

 

[You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain]
*...the smile fades a bit at the edges as it is ignored...*

No matter what anyone thinks, no matter what they think *I* think...

 

 

['Cause I'm losing my mind
When you're not around]
*...an adoring look...*

No matter what he thinks...

 

 

[It's all... it's all...
It's all because of you]
*...a hesitant embrace...*

It really doesn't make a difference because in the end it stays the same.

All that matters is that...

 

 

[You're my sunshine
Oh yeah...]
*...a thoughtful look at the clinging figure...*

It's because of him that I can keep on fighting.

It's because of him that I can keep on dreaming.

...

It's because of him that I can keep on living.

 

 

[Baby I really know by now
Since we met that day
You showed me the way]
 *...images of the first time they met run through...*

Who'd have thought that the determined boy I saw would end up stealing my heart...

Ever since I met him, I've had to rethink many things in my life...

 

 

[I felt it then you gave me love]
*...misty eyed remembrance of an intense stare from infinite blue eyes...*

He's shown me how empty I really was inside.

He's shown me how he can fill the gaping void in my heart...

 

 

[I can't describe
How much I feel for you]
*...wistful thoughts run through the mind...*

I... I really don't know if I love him. I don't even know if I *like* him. But... but I must. I have to. Because if I didn't then how could he haunt my dreams so much?

If I didn't, then how could I want him so much?

...

How could I *need* him so much...

 

 

[I said baby I should have known by now]
*...a playful comment is offered to a still figure...*

I haven't known him for that long. But every time we're together, every time we talk... every time I *look* at him...

I feel the same intense rush I do each time...

I guess I really should know what it is by now.

But I don't.

And... I guess it's only fair since I... I don't really know how he feels about me. Is it affection? Irritation? Indifference?

...

Love?

 

 

[Should have been right there
Whenever you gave me love]
*...a low answer is given...*

He loves me. I know he does. He *has* to.

After all, hasn't he shown it in countless little ways?

Hasn't he always had that glint in his eye whenever he looks at me?

Hasn't his voice softened whenever he talks to me?

...

Hasn't he never been able to carry out his threats to me?

 

 

[And if only you were here
I'll tell you, yes I'll tell you
Oh yeah...]
 *...a regretful glance behind...*

He's gone on a mission now.

I... I guess in a way I should be glad for that. It gives me a chance to think of how I'm going to tell him how I feel...

I've never said it to him before, and I know it must be hurting him so...

Under the guise of the Perfect Soldier, he really is just a sensitive, sweet boy. I almost cry when I think of what he had to have gone through to change from that caring boy to how hard he is today.

 

 

[You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain]
*...a daydream of future times spent together...*

But I will help him through it. I will help him just as he will help me. His strength will support me and hold me in the difficult times ahead...

Just like I will for him.

 

 

['Cause I'm losing my mind
When you're not around]
 *...a sad glance upwards...*

I... I... I'm so confused. Everyone wants something of me, something *different* from each person. He's the only one I know who doesn't demand I fight, doesn't expect me to be perpetually strong. Maybe that's what draws me to him.

Just the mere fact that he doesn't seem to care...

 

 

[It's all... it's all...
It's all because of you]
 *...a small smile...*

It's both a challenge and a deterrent. But he *has* to care, otherwise...

 

 

[Honestly, could it be you and me
Like it was before
Neither less or more?]
*...a frustrated figure flops down on a bed...*

He *has* to.

I belong to him, he belongs to me.

We belong together.

 

 

['Cause when I close my eyes
At night I realize that no one else
Could ever take your place]
*...a sleeping figure tosses and turns...*

I remember a time where he *showed* just how much he cared...

 

 

[I still can feel and it's so real
When you're touching me]
 *...dreams of him...*

I was at a park with him, and we were caught in the rain...

Afterwards, as we were drying off, I asked him to help me rebraid my hair since I couldn't quite reach the ends, and he gave me the most intense look...

That has to prove it.

Any other person I've seen him with he either ignores or...

Or he's violently aggressive towards them.

Just the fact that he gave me that look *proves* he loves me.

...

Doesn't it?

 

 

[Kisses endlessly
It's just a place in the sun
Where our love's begun
I miss you... yes I miss you]
*...memory of a soft kiss...*

If he didn't love me, then why has he stayed with me?

If he didn't love me, then why is he so gentle with me?

If he didn't love me, then why has he kissed me...

 

 

[You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain]
*...the inscrutable look afterwards...*

It was so tender, so unexpected, so *brief*...

 

 

['Cause I'm losing my mind
When you're not around
It's all... it's all...
It's all because of you]
 *...bewildered thoughts...*

I never expected him to initiate it...

I mean, all this time, *I* was the one who chased *him*, and I never thought that *he'd* be the one to start things between us...

 

 

[If I knew how to tell you
What's on my mind
Make you understand]
*...an envelope is opened...*

Why?

*Why* can't I tell him?

Why can't *he* tell *me*?

 

 

[Then I'd always be there
Right by your side]
*...a hard glare at a photograph...*

He *knows* that I'll always be there for him.

Even if I never *said* anything, he *has* to know.

He *has* to know that I'll never leave him...

 

 

[You're my sunshine after the rain]
*...a snarl...*

But maybe...

Maybe he doesn't feel the same way...

Maybe I've made a mistake and he doesn't really love me...

 

 

[You're the cure against my fear and my pain]
*...the photo is crushed...*

No! That can't be it! I *know* he loves me. He *has* to!

He has to...

 

 

['Cause I'm losing my mind]
*...a scream of rage...*

Because if he doesn't then how can I go on...

Who'll be my strength when I fall?

Who'll be my pillar to lean on?

...

Who'll be there to love me...

 

 

[When you're not around]
*...and stomped into the ground...*

No!

He *does*.

He does love me.

 

 

[It's all...]
*...where it reveals two figures...*

How can he not?

How can *anyone* not?

Don't I always get what I want?

Doesn't the whole world look up to me?

 

 

[It's all...]
*...wrapped up together in a tender embrace...*

After all...

 

 

[It's all because of you]
*...one with a long chestnut braid and sparkling violet eyes, and the other with fierce prussian blue eyes...*

I am Relena Peacecraft.

~OWARI~

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